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Where I’m At, Yo

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It’s been about a month and a half since I last posted an article here, so I figured some explanation was in order. First, I’ll get the typical deadbeat-blogger apology out of the way:

Sorry about the sporadic updates lately! I’ve been so busy!

But I’m gonna be better now. Soon enough the posts will be coming fast and furious. Just you wait.

(This type of post is usually followed by a new post or two and then another long period of silence. This second period often spells the death of the blog.)

Now don’t worry — I am planning to continue to update this blog. (And thanks to those who have asked.) But my updates will likely be more sporadic in the coming months than they were last year. I’ve decided to refocus my priorities a little.

Let me explain. When I first left my job about one and a half years ago, I set up a daily schedule for myself. In the beginning, this involved working on music, writing, and reading for some number of hours each day.

The schedule morphed over time. I eliminated the reading component. I still read every day, but I’m more casual about it. At one point, I added “networking” to the schedule. It’s not really on there anymore because networking is now a part of my regular lifestyle. I had to force it at the peak of my hermit-dom.

The writing on this blog has changed a lot since its inception. At first, it was mostly essays on personal things I was working through. Then it got more self-helpy. Then it got philosophical. And finally it entered its present phase, where I’ve been doing immersive experiments and mini research projects.

I’m most happy with the most recent content. Something always seemed off before the last few articles. They’ve been my favorites, and they’ve also gotten the best response.

So why slow down now? New developments. As The Big Lebowski’s Dude says: “New shit has come to light.

Earlier this year, on a lark, I made a small Facebook app. I was interested in virality and inspired by my brother, who had had success with Facebook apps.

Long story short, my app — a one-shot deal — got about 15 million users in about a week. Its usage is near zero now, but for a brief period it was a pretty big deal. It was #3 on Alexa’s “What’s Hot” list. It’s name was a “hot query” on Google Trends. Threads popped up all over the place with people discussing it.

So I had my 15 million users and 15 minutes of fame. And also more than 3,000 complaints in my e-mail inbox. And 70,000 “fans” on the app’s Facebook page.

That was fun. Stressful at first, but fun. When else in human history has some dude — me in this case — been able to make something that is used by millions of people within days? It’s crazy. Fast viral growth has always existed on the internet, but Facebook just makes it crazy.

My takeaway from the Facebook experience wasn’t that I want to devote my life to Facebook apps. That would be kinda dumb. But I did get a taste of the world of web development and the leverage you can have.

I’ve spent a huge amount of time in my life programming computers. I started at the age of 9. It’s been almost 20 years now. I majored in computer science in college, and I got a software job after graduating. But by the time I left the job, I was feeling pretty burnt out on programming. I had spent so much time on it and neglected other areas of my life.

For more than a year, I did zero programming. I think it was a good break. Over that time I realized that what I’m really interested in is creating awesome things that people use, not just programming for programming’s sake. I’m ready to start creating software again, but only if I’m really excited about the project. I’m not going to start doing it just because I’m good at it or “I shouldn’t waste my education” or that’s where the money is, or whatever.

Recently I’ve been devoting more time to a couple new online projects. And I’ve realized that I really can’t have three focuses. Music, writing, and software, all at the same time, is too much for one person. I can do all three to some degree, but one of them has to be on the back burner. I’ve decided that one will be writing.

Partly I’ve been feeling a bit less excited about writing lately. Or perhaps just more excited about other things. I’m going to keep doing it, but my current level of interest isn’t high enough to justify spending a couple hours every day. That time would help a lot if devoted to other stuff.

Music? Despite my lack of output recently, I’m actually really excited about that right now. I’m made a lot more progress in the last few months, and I’m excited about putting together some type of act in the coming year — more to come. I’m actively composing new material right now.

So, in summary: Expect more articles here. They’ll be good. I already have some cool ideas. But expect fewer of them. I’ll be spending less time writing in the coming months.

Of course I could get inspired and post a flurry of content. We’ll see. But I’m not going to force it.

Ciao!

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February 22nd, 2010 at 10:50 am

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A Guide to Buying Humanely-Produced Meat, Eggs, and Dairy Products

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The food-animal industry in the United States is a mess. Most food animals are raised in confined animal feeding operations — “factory farms,” colloquially — where they’re crammed together into warehouses or small cages, forced to stand in their own urine and feces, and subjected to painful mutilations. They’re given hormones to make them grow faster and larger and produce more. They peck and bite at one another in boredom and frustration.

Factory farms exist because it’s cheaper to produce meat, eggs, and dairy products in confined conditions. Animal suffering is irrelevant as long as it doesn’t cut into profits. Even premature deaths are acceptable as long as overall production per unit cost is higher.

Since you’re reading this, I’m assuming that you care about animal suffering and want to minimize it. But there are other reasons to buy humanely-produced animal products. For one: meat, eggs, and dairy produced in more natural conditions are provably healthier than factory farmed alternatives. Not all steaks and eggs are created equal.

Growing awareness of factory farming conditions has led to an abundance of labels. Eggs are “cage free,” “free range,” and “vegetarian fed”; meat is “free range,” “grass fed,” and “certified humane”; milk is “rBST free.” The problem is that these labels are deceptive. Some aren’t controlled or verified at all, while others require only minimal protections for animals. You can bet that factory farms, which compete mostly on price, aren’t doing any more than their labels legally require them.

In this article, I’ll explain what these labels actually mean and which of them indicate humane conditions for animals. (Very few of them do). I’ll also explain the health benefits of eating products from naturally raised animals. And finally I’ll look at prices and availability.

A warning: The humane stuff isn’t cheap. Factory farms have gotten meat, egg, and dairy production down to a science. We’re used to unrealistically low prices for these foods.

Eggs

By all accounts chickens are one of the most poorly treated species of food animal. In the worst case (and also the most common one) they’re crammed into tiny “battery cages,” each about the size of a filing cabinet drawer and holding eight to ten hens. The chickens don’t have room to lie down or stretch their wings, much less engage in natural behaviors.

It’s safe to assume that any eggs not labeled as “cage free” or “free range” come from hens living in battery cages. The cheapest eggs — the ones you can get for $1 to $2 per dozen (or less) — fall into this category.

"Cage free" chickens, taken from a New York Times article

"Cage free" chickens, taken from linked New York Times article

“Cage free” and “free range” eggs are better from a humane standpoint than battery caged eggs, but they’re not as much better as you might think. “Cage free” hens are packed into large warehouses often containing more than five thousand birds apiece. Though the hens aren’t in cages, they get only a square foot or so of space each and are kept awake in artificial light to increase production. The ends of their beaks are chopped off to prevent them from pecking each other to death — which will happen when thousands are jammed together and they can’t establish a pecking order. The warehouses reek of ammonia from the hens’ urine.

The “free range” label is deceptive. All it means (according to the US Department of Agriculture definition) is that hens are given “access to the outside.” This generally means hens can exit their cage-free warehouses (see above) and roam in a small outdoor lot, which is often little more than a fenced-in patch of dirt. Because the hens’ food is stored indoors, there is little incentive for them to go outside, despite their “access.”

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Google satellite view of "Judy's Family Farm"

The imagery on egg cartons is usually a total fabrication. Factory farms strive to project a quaint, family farm image. Their packaging materials show small barns and chickens roaming in idyllic settings. (See, for example, egg cartons for “Judy’s Family Farm,” which is nothing more than the marketing work of a large factory farming operation.). When these images are juxtaposed with the labels “cage free” and “free range,” they give consumers the wrong impression.

So what eggs do come from humane conditions? Unfortunately, none that you can find in the typical supermarket or grocery store. In many areas, however, it’s possible to buy humanely-raised eggs directly from small-time farmers or from specialty stores that buy from these farmers. The key is to look for eggs from “pasture-raised” or “pastured” chickens. These chickens spend their days outside in the grass, scratching in the dirt and eating bugs. See the section on price and availability below.

Pastured eggs are quite a bit more expensive than normal, factory-farmed eggs. They’re also healthier to eat. I’ll get into that later as well.

Meat: Chicken, Pork, and Beef

Factory farmed chickens raised for their meat have it about as bad as “cage free” chickens raised for their eggs. They live in large warehouses packed with thousands of their own kind. Their beaks are clipped and they live amidst the ammonia stench of their own urine.

The “free range” label means the same thing it does for eggs: the chickens need only be given “access” to the outdoors. The amount of time they are given access and the quality of their outdoor area — and most likely whether they use it at all — are up to the factory farmer.

Pigs in a factory farm, courtesy Wikipedia

Pigs in a factory farm, courtesy Wikipedia

Factory farmed pigs have it especially bad. They’re crammed together into small cages in large warehouses where they have little room to move. They bite at each other out of frustration and boredom. They develop sores on their bodies from lying on the hard floor. While pregnant, sows are confined to “gestation crates,” where they don’t have enough room to turn around and can do little more than eat and lie down.

Cattle probably get the best treatment of the bunch. They spend the beginnings of their lives on pasture. When they’re about 6 to 12 months old, however, they’re shipped off to dirt feedlots, where they’re packed together with thousands of others, forced to stand in piles of their own manure, juiced up on hormones, and stuffed with grain and whatever other food can be bought cheaply — stale candy, sugar beet waste, chicken feces, etc. Because cows’ stomachs are designed to digest grasses, this diet gives them painful and constant indigestion. Feedlot cows are given regular doses of antibiotics to ward off diseases stemming from their lifestyle.

So how to get humanely-raised meat? The key words again are “pastured” and “pasture-raised.” “Free range” and “grass fed” aren’t good enough. All cattle are grass fed before they’re shipped to feedlots. Look for beef that is “100% grass fed” or “grass finished” instead. However, even some cows that are “100% grass fed” are confined for most of their lives, so it’s necessary to verify that they were pastured.

As with eggs, meat from pastured animals is substantially healthier than meat from factory farmed animals. See the section below on health.

Milk and Other Dairy Products

Dairy cattle have it at least as bad as beef cattle. They’re also confined to feedlots. They’re artificially inseminated yearly to keep them lactating and separated from their calves shortly after giving birth — which is traumatic, judging from their reaction. They’re given hormones to increase milk production far beyond natural levels and then antibiotics to ward off diseases that result. Mastitis, a painful udder infection, afflicts about half of them.

Once again, look for milk from cows that are “pastured.” From what I’ve seen, most pastured dairy cows are confined indoors for part of the year or during certain seasons — but that can be done in a sanitary and humane way. Look for dairy products from cows not treated with any hormones (all organic products pass this requirement).

Health Benefits

Humane treatment of animals isn’t the only reason to by pastured eggs, meat, and dairy products. The pastured versions of all three are significantly healthier than factory farmed equivalents along a number of dimensions.

For example: Eggs from pastured hens have less saturated fat, less cholesterol, double the omega-3’s (health-promoting fats), three times the vitamin D, and substantially more vitamin A and E than factory-farmed eggs (whether they be caged, “cage free,” or “free range”). (See, for example, this article.) The difference comes from the pastured hens’ diet and lifestyle — rather than staying indoors and eating grain, pastured hens are outside eating bugs (and some grass) as they would naturally.

Pastured eggs are immediately recognizable: their yolks are a bright, deep orange color (factory farmed eggs’ yolks are more yellowish). This coloring comes from carotenes in the grass.

Factory farmers have started to do ridiculous things to appeal to current health trends. For example, many stores now carry “Omega-3 Enhanced” eggs, which come from hens whose diets have been supplemented with flaxseed (which is high in omega-3). This micro-nutrient approach to health has failed in the past, and it’s just a band-aid, anyway. You get none of the other health benefits of pastured eggs from “Omega-3 Enhanced” eggs.

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Decline of omega-3's in feedlot cows, courtesy EatWild.com

Meat from grass-fed animals is similarly better for you. It has substantially less total fat, less saturated fat, less cholesterol, more of vitamins E and C, and more omega-3’s than factory farmed meat. 100% grass fed beef, for example, has about three times the omega-3’s of “normal” beef. Though all cattle start out grass fed, the nutritional content of their meat degrades as they spend time in feedlots (see graph right).

Milk from pastured cows contains more omega-3’s and more of vitamins A and E (see this article). These benefits come from the cows’ diet and the fact that they’re producing less milk.

These health differences aren’t well known. Factory farmers are used to competing only on price. The corners they cut don’t just increase production (and animal suffering); they also produce an inferior product. The eggs, meat, and dairy products we’re eating now are the least healthy in all of human history.

Price and Availability

So pastured eggs, meat, and dairy products are humane and healthy. What’s not to like? Well, two things: price and availability.

You have to do some work to find pastured products, and it’s harder to find them if you don’t live relatively close to farming areas. It’s usually best to buy directly from farmers, either through farmers’ markets or “community supported agriculture” (CSA) programs, which distribute boxes of farm-fresh goods on a regular basis. Some CSA’s distribute eggs, meat, and dairy products.

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The "egg matrix" at Rainbow Grocery

It’s also possible to get this stuff from some grocery stores. You won’t have any luck at typical supermarkets like Safeway, but independent ones sometimes carried pastured products. In San Francisco, I found two: Bi-Rite Market and Rainbow Grocery. Both of these places were very clear in their labeling of their products. It’s easy to be fooled by marketing language and imagery on packages, so you have to make sure you’re getting the real thing. I also checked out the Ferry Plaza Farmers’ Market and found three suppliers of pastured eggs and meat there.

Prices aren’t low. Partly this is a San Francisco thing — there’s a lot of demand for these products here, and land prices in the surrounding area are high. But it’s also unavoidable: Factory farming exists because it’s cheap. It’s cruel to animals and produces an inferior product, yes, but it’s cheap. That’s the whole point.

The cheapest pastured eggs I found in San Francisco were $7.50 / dozen. Compare that to $3 – $4 for “cage free” eggs at Safeway and $1 – $2 for eggs from chickens in battery cages. That’s a huge difference, but keep in mind that these products aren’t the same. Pastured eggs are substantially healthier — and tastier, many say — than the alternatives. (Note that pastured eggs are about $6 / dozen from a CSA in my hometown of Modesto, California.)

In general, meat from pasture-raised animals was about 2 to 3 times more expensive than the factory farmed alternatives. For example, ground beef was $6 / lb at the farmers’ market, compared to $3 – $4 / lb at Safeway. A whole chicken was $5 / lb vs. $1.50 / lb at Safeway.

EatWild.com has a great state-by-state directory of farms selling pastured animal products.

So how to afford these more expensive products?

There are two options: either hunker down and accept that we’re paying too little for animal products right now (and start paying more), or eat less of them.

Though people like to complain about rising food prices, our total expenditure for food (time- and effort-wise) is, in the context of human history, at an all-time low. Maybe we should be paying more for food (and buying it more responsibly).

Americans eat a lot of animal products. Do we need to stop eating them entirely? No. But do they need to be the centerpiece of every meal? Also no. It’s possible to afford humanely-produced animals products simply by eating less of them.

Is there a middle ground between pastured animal products and bottom-of-the-barrel factory farmed ones? Yes — but it’s more similar to the latter than the former. Organic animal products are usually at least marginally better than normal ones from a humane standpoint — no hormones are used, for example. Some factory farmers are producing better, more-humane products than others. Niman Ranch beef, for example, comes from cattle “finished” in feedlots. But they aren’t given hormones or antibiotics and minimum living and handling standards — over normal industry conditions — are specified.

So there you have it. It’s not easy or cheap to buy humanely-produced animal products. But considerations of animal welfare and personal health provide a strong argument for doing so. Any step in the right direction is better than no step at all. I know I’m changing my buying and eating habits.

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January 4th, 2010 at 10:46 am

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My Week of Helping People: An Experiment in Immersion

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help_wantedA week and a half ago, I issued a new challenge to myself.

I blocked out a week of my life. The plan: to help other people out, full-time — eight to ten hours per day, for seven days straight. Everything I’d do beyond sleeping, showering, eating, and a bit of relaxing would be devoted to others.

This week would be about them, not me.

I’ve become interested recently in immersive challenges as a means to personal growth. A month ago, I spent 16 hours in the kitchen over a single weekend after a decade of avoiding cooking. The experience was fun, enlightening, and exhausting.

I thought afterward: I need to do this more often. Despite its arbitrariness, the challenge was exhilarating. It brought me fully into the present moment. It shook up my reality: Here I was thinking about and preparing food to the point of exhaustion after a decade of procrastinating. It was almost an out-of-body experience. (No kidding!)

There’s something about an immersive challenge that brings me to life. The focus, the determination, the immediacy. The doing of things completely foreign to me. The fear of failing. These challenges are so much more fun than taking baby steps, making routines, analyzing, planning. Why do things the boring way?

I’ve wanted to become more other-focused for some time now.

It’s a long story. I’d like to say it’s not about my having been selfish, per se, but about my being an individualist. I’m sure my feeling of being an outsider, which came from my childhood, has something to do with it.

The point of this experiment is to shed what’s-in-it-for-me thinking for a week. It’s to immerse myself in others’ perspectives. It’s to understand what they want and to give it to them — without asking for anything in return.

I craft a plan: I block out a week where I would make no other commitments. I’ll spend the majority of each of these seven days helping other people.

How will I help them? I could spend the week doing unsolicited favors for people — cleaning my entire 5-bedroom apartment (which I share with roommates), volunteering at the homeless shelter, cleaning garbage in the park, etc. Or I could ask people how I could help them and simply do what they request — run their errands, do their laundry, whatever they want.

After waffling between extremes, I decide to do both. Why limit myself to one form of help? The two types take different mindsets, and I want to experience both.

I generate a long list of ideas. Once I’m sure I have enough — it’s not easy to fill an entire week! — I get started.

This is how things go.

Day 1 – Cleaning house

Deciding to start close to home on day 1, I spend about seven hours cleaning the common rooms of my five-bedroom apartment. The apartment doesn’t get cleaned very often, and when it does it takes my roommates and me several hours working together.

After seven hours of scrubbing toilets and mopping floors, I still have more to do, but I’m tired — and to be honest, I’m starting to feel a bit irritable. Helping out is easier said than done. After finishing, I shop for food and cook fried rice for the roommates and myself.

Day 2 – Trash pickup

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I start day 2 a little farther from home, heading over to Dolores Park, a well-known hangout in San Francisco’s Mission District.

I’m not here to hang out, though. The weather’s gloomy, it’s 10 AM, and I have a few large trash bags.

The park itself is already pretty clean, but the public rail tracks beside it are covered in garbage. I’ve found the mother lode: There’s plenty of trash to pick up — as long as I can avoid getting hit by the train. Dying wouldn’t be very helpful.

I spend two hours filling two and a half large trash bags with liquor bottles, candy wrappers, burrito remnants, and what look like nitrous oxide canisters. At one point, some hippie-looking dudes look down at the tracks and yell, “Right on, man!” — marking the high point of what may have been the low point of my week.

It starts raining, so I can’t pick up any more trash. I head home and post a Facebook message to all my friends, asking them how I can help them. I get a big response. Everyone has things they want me to do. That’s good, because I have plenty of time over the next six days.

I do my friend Christine’s laundry. While at the laundromat, I begin affixing 500 stickers to 500 cards for my friend Arvel’s fledgling record label. I finish a couple hours later. I sign up for work in a soup kitchen the next day at a friend’s suggestion. I research techniques for getting a good night’s sleep for my stressed-out brother Chris (at his request) and send him a report. I end the day by cooking a large stir fry for the roommates.

Day 3 – Meatballs for the homeless

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Day 3 begins with community service work at Glide, a soup kitchen in San Francisco’s slummy Tenderloin district. I’m here to serve lunch to the homeless and otherwise down-and-out.

While there are a few other volunteers, it’s clear that a number of the helpers are doing their mandatory community service work. I make eye contact with one tough-looking guy and say, “What’s up?” His response: “I’m having a bad day.”

The permanent kitchen workers are all, by contrast, very friendly. They assign me to be the “runner,” meaning my job is to ferry trays, cups, and silverware from the cleaning room in the back of the cafeteria to the service area in front. The cafeteria itself is in the basement of the building and has the look of a slightly spruced-up prison mess hall.

Soon a large line forms and people are streaming in. On the menu are cabbage, some kind of rice, and meatballs and gravy on a hotdog bun. The room gets crowded very quickly. I carry utensils back and forth and refill pitchers from a garbage can full of water.

People are scraping food off others’ trays before it gets thrown out. One guy waits by the garbage for 20 minutes, filling a plastic bag with scraps for his dog.

At one point, a fight breaks out. Two men are rolling on the ground under a table, and some others are shouting and rubber-necking to see what’s going on. Security comes over to break it up. I walk around the crowd with another rack of cups.

The experience overall is interesting and quite rewarding. I head home and finish cleaning the house, which takes a couple hours. I spend the rest of the day researching loose leaf tea prices for my friend Ameeth and editing my friend Rachel’s grad school application essay.

Day 4 – Habitat restoration

3768317974_cf6412c91dDay 4 — a Saturday — starts early. At 9 AM, I arrive at Mount Sutro in San Francisco, ready to do some habitat restoration with an organized group. I found this gig on OneBrick.org, a great site that pairs volunteers with projects for one-off events.

This event is popular: over 40 people show up. I join a group heading to the top of the mountain to do some weeding. Apparently the entire mountain was overgrown and inaccessible prior to the founding of this project a few years back.

I spend about three hours pulling sow thistle, forget-me-not, french broom, and some kind of ivy from the ground. These are all invasive species; they’re crowding out the less-hearty native plants. The work is fun, and it’s nice to get my hands dirty. The people are cool, too.

Later in the day I spend a couple hours collecting band review data for my friend Arvel’s record label, at his request. I start reading excerpts of my friend Kim’s novel, which she is submitting to agents and planning to use in her grad school applications.

Day 5 – Reading about pyrates

pyratesFor day 5, I choose an ambitious project: I will record a chapter of a book for LibriVox, on online library of public domain audiobooks recorded by volunteers. I found out about LibriVox a month ago, and I’ve been listening to books from it in the gym.

After some deliberation, I choose A General History of the Pyrates, a 1724 book containing biographies of contemporary pirates — you know, Blackbeard, Calico Jack, Black Bart, etc. I wouldn’t want to deprive the world of eighteenth century pirate audiobooks, now would I?

To make a long story short, it takes about 8 hours before I have an (almost-)finished product. It takes a while to create an acceptable recording setup, and it’s hard not to stumble over sentences like this one:

We find him Commander of a Pyrate Sloop of eight Guns, and 80 Men, in the Month of September, 1716, cruising off Jamaica, Cuba, etcetera, about which Time he took the Berkley Galley, Captain Saunders, and plundered him of 1000 pounds in Money, and afterwards met with a Sloop call’d the King Solomon, from whom he took some Money, and Provisions, besides Goods, to a good Value.

Yarr. When I’m done, I continue reading Kim’s novel — she’s sent about 70 pages! It’s good.

Day 6 – Sweeping the sidewalk

sidewalk_leavesI return to the outdoors on the morning of day 6, sweeping leaves off the sidewalk on my block. This is the urban equivalent of raking the front lawn.

I feel a bit dumb doing this. But hey, it’s helpful, right? I’ve seen other people sweeping the street in my neighborhood, so they at least must appreciate the work. And the sidewalk is damn clean when I’m done an hour and a half later.

I finish Kim’s novel excerpts and send her feedback. I research technical details for my friend Brett’s consulting project, which aims to create online gallery software for existing art collections.

At this point I’ve done everything my friends requested, and I need to make a little work for myself. The most exhausting part about this project isn’t the helping itself; it’s the constant search for things to do. It’s not easy fill a whole week with helpful activities.

I sign up for Aardvark, a social search / question answering site that started recently. Unfortunately, I spend a lot of time looking for questions to answer and only find one that I’m actually qualified to answer. That’s not very helpful!

Oh well — the day’s almost over. I end it by cooking a large batch of mint brownies for everyone.

Day 7 – Stuffing envelopes

The week is almost up! I’ve enjoyed it, but I’m getting really tired. It’s been about 10 days since I had a day off.

I spend a couple hours editing and finishing up my Pyrates recording. My friend Raja says he doesn’t have anything specific for me to do, but he’d like me to read Gandhi’s autobiography, which he says will help maximize my positive impact on the world. Sounds good! I start reading.

Before heading off to my last volunteer event, I head downtown and walk around for a little while, giving a dollar to every panhandler I see. This is an interesting experience — I’m actively seeking out panhandlers after avoiding them for years.

In the evening, I head over to the offices of Streetside Stories, a non-profit that helps children improve their literacy skills. I’m here to stuff donation-request envelopes. Though this sounds mundane, it actually ends up being pretty fun and social.

After writing “Hi [name], We hope you can join us!” on envelope inserts for a couple hours, I chat with the other volunteers and then head home.

The week is over!

I’m tired, but satisfied. I’ve spent more than 60 hours helping others, done a bunch of interesting stuff, and met some cool people.

My intent during this week was to give the world what it wanted; it wasn’t to impose my will on it. I tried not to question the motives or intentions of others. I wasn’t choosey about how I helped; no task was below me.

I can already feel my perspective shifting. That was the main goal of this project. It wasn’t so much about the specific acts of helping as it was about taking the perspective of others. It was about immersing myself in their perspectives.

This week-long experiment will, I’m sure, filter into the rest of my life. And that’s what I love most about immersion — though temporary, its effects are often permanent.

Image credits:

Help Wanted by kandyjaxx
Dolores Park Tracks by atp_tyreseus
Mount Sutro Vegetation by Whole Wheat Toast
Glide Line by Andrew Turner
Leaves on the Sidewalk by me.

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November 30th, 2009 at 1:45 pm

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Eating Healthily for $3 a Day

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A few weeks ago I challenged myself to go from microwaving corndogs and boiling pasta to cooking a fancy meal in a weekend. Sixteen hours of work later, I emerged successful.

Are my food problems all solved? Not yet. Though being able to cook fancy is great for special occasions, it’s not something I can do every day. It’s time-consuming, expensive, and, unless I watch carefully, not very healthy. On a day-to-day basis, I want food that’s cheap, healthy, and quick to prepare. (Oh, and tasty — but let’s ignore that little detail for now.)

Preparation speed isn’t such a big issue — I can always reheat leftovers. But what about the other two? How cheap do I want my food? And how healthy?

I want it to be as cheap and as healthy as possible, of course. But those goals seem opposed. After all, I could heat up Ramen noodles and live — at least for a little while — on about a dollar a day. But that’s a terrible idea: I want to save money, but I don’t want scurvy.

Healthy food is more expensive than Ramen. But just how much more expensive is it? A week ago I issued a new challenge to myself:

I want to find the cheapest daily diet that meets all common nutritional recommendations.

Now, nutrition is tricky business. Nutritional guidelines change often. New nutrients are found. “Good” nutrients are discovered to be bad, and vice-versa.

For this reason, some experts — Michael Pollan comes to mind — recommend ignoring complex nutrition advice altogether. Instead, they suggest keeping it simple: Eat a variety of fresh, unprocessed foods. Focus mostly on produce and, if you’re an omnivore, choose high-quality meats.

I don’t want to stray too far from that advice. Besides the health arguments, I’m drawn toward unprocessed food on an aesthetic level. I want to keep things simple. But at the same time, I want to make sure I’m not straying too far from standard nutrition advice — stuff about fat percentages, vitamins, minerals, and so on. I’m not a nutrition expert, after all.

So I’m making sure my hypothetical cheap and healthy diet meets the following requirements, which come mostly from the standard USDA recommendations:

  1. Provides 2000 calories per day
  2. Maintains the standard caloric ratios: 20-30% of calories from fat, about 10% from protein, and the rest from carbohydrates
  3. Meets standard vitamin recommendations for A, C, E, K, Thiamin, Riboflavin, Niacin, Folate, B12, Pantothenic acid
  4. Meets standard mineral recommendations for Calcium, Iron, Magnesium, Phosphorus, Potassium, Sodium, Zinc, Copper, Manganese, Selenium
  5. Meets standard fiber recommendation
  6. Keeps saturated fat to a minimum
  7. Keeps cholesterol to a minimum

Sounds complicated, right? Fortunately I’ve found a handy website that gives me nutritional breakdowns for lists of foods and quantities.

Of course, I could really geek out and write a computer program that solves a constraint optimization problem given nutrition data and prices for a variety of foods. But let’s not get carried away. Nutrition isn’t an exact science and prices vary, anyway. (But if anyone else wants to do that, let me know the result!)

I decided early on that I want the staples of my theoretical diet to be rice and beans.

Both are extremely cheap by calorie. Beans are high-protein and filled with vitamins and minerals. Together they contain all essential amino acids, which forms a complete protein. (I don’t really understand what that means, but it sure sounds good, right?)

i-beans-pintoIt turns out that beans — kidney, pinto, black, white, etc. — are pretty equivalent as far as nutrition goes. They’re cheapest when bought dry. The best deal I found was on pinto beans at Safeway, where you can get a 20-pound bag for $15.19 — or $0.76 / lb. That equates to 2042 calories and 126 grams of protein per dollar!

brown-riceBrown rice has more fiber and other nutrients than white rice, so I chose it. I wasn’t able to find any great deals in local grocery stores, but you can buy 50-pound bags of the stuff online for $61.48 (including shipping), or $1.23 / lb. That equates to a still-impressive 1364 calories per dollar.

Unfortunately — or perhaps for variety’s sake, fortunately — rice and beans form a very incomplete diet. Both contain almost zero fat, and it’s important to get a substantial portion of calories from fat. Their combination is also low in a number of vitamins and minerals — most notably vitamins A, C, E, K, and B12, riboflavin (gotta have it!), and calcium.

broccoliI turned next to fruits and vegetables. Of the two, vegetables seem most nutrient rich for the money. After looking at a lot of vegetables, I decided that broccoli and sweet potatoes looked most promising. Both are reasonably priced by the pound and packed with nutrients. They’re both often called “superfoods.” They’re also both in season right now.

0411p30c-sweet_potato-mThe lowest price I could find on broccoli was at Golden Produce, a local shop, where it was about $1.33 / lb. Sweet potatoes sell for $0.99 / lb at KJ Produce, another local shop.

At this point, the major holes remaining in the diet were fat — there was still almost none — calcium, and vitamin B12. For fat, I decided to use a combination of oil and seeds or nuts. I couldn’t use only oil, as way too much would be necessary.

how-olive-oil-works-31222748225I chose olive oil, which seems universally regarded as healthy and is quite reasonably priced. At Safeway, I found a 44 oz (88 tablespoon) bottle for $15.99. That equates to $0.18 per tablespoon.

Peanuts are the cheapest nut, but I didn’t pick them. They’re pretty high in saturated fat and less nutrient-rich than many other types of nuts. Almonds are a lot better, but they’re also a lot more expensive.

sunflower-seedsI settled on sunflower seeds, which are somewhere in the middle nutritionally. They’re a good source of vitamin E, niacin, and zinc, which were still lacking. They sell at Safeway for $1.59 / lb (unshelled) in bulk.

milk-organic-FD-lgThe remaining nutrients needed were calcium and vitamin B12. Calcium is easy — milk is the best source, and it’s pretty cheap. It costs $2.99 per gallon at Safeway.

Vitamin B12 is tricky. There’s some in milk but none in any of the other foods I’ve chosen so far. It’s the one vitamin that’s missing in vegan diets, and all the foods I’ve selected (other than milk) are vegan. It’s recommended that vegans supplement their diets with B12, either in fortified health foods or as a separate pill.

Why not just include meat in the diet? Well, first, it’s not very cheap. But more importantly, I’d rather buy the cheapest grains and vegetables than buy the cheapest meat. Bargain basement meat is likely produced in atrocious factory farming conditions and pumped up with hormones.

So … B12. I’m copping out. Take a supplement! It’s only a few extra cents a day. This diet provides adequate quantities of all other vitamins and minerals.

Time to wrap up.

I settled on the following daily quantities of each of the foods listed above, with prices listed:

  1. 3 cups cooked brown rice ($0.53)
  2. 2 cups cooked pinto beans ($0.23)
  3. 2 stalks cooked broccoli (360g) ($1.06)
  4. 1 baked sweet potato (180g) ($0.40)
  5. 1 tablespoon olive oil ($0.18)
  6. 1/2 cup sunflower seeds, shelled ($0.22)
  7. 2 cups nonfat milk ($0.37)

The total cost per day is $2.99.

This diet supplies 2090 calories and all essential vitamins and minerals (with the exception of B12; see the discussion above). Fiber is high. Saturated fat and cholesterol are very low. 23% of calories come from fat, 15% from protein, and the rest from carbohydrates.

This diet is quite high in protein (at 174% the daily recommended value). I don’t think there are any problems with that, but it’s something to keep in mind. (And it’s interesting to note, since many think vegetarian diets are low in protein.)

See the vitamin and mineral charts below, courtesy of NutritionData.com:

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(Notes: add salt to taste if you want more sodium. Vitamin D comes from exposure to sunlight!)

Am I recommending eating exactly the foods listed above every day?

No.

And would you do that even if I were recommending it? Didn’t think so. My goal here isn’t to suggest an exact diet. It’s only to see how cheap it’s possible to go while remaining healthy.

The diet above is very nutritious. I’m sure, in fact, that it’s quite a bit more nutritious than what I’m currently eating. And it’s only $2.99 per day.

I’ll definitely be looking more closely at what I’m eating. With substitutions for variety, spices, and interesting recipes, the basic diet listed above is actually very workable. Of course, I’m not planning to adhere strictly to any diet. I’m too lazy, and exceptions make life interesting.

But for run-of-the-mill daily meals, it’s nice to make sure I’m eating healthily and cheaply. And clearly it is possible to do both.

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November 2nd, 2009 at 11:50 am

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Thoughts on Feeling like an Outsider

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Have you ever struggled with a problem for years only to discover, in a flash, that the solution is face-slappingly obvious? I’ve been having that happen a lot lately.

The best insights, I think, are the ones that seem so obvious — so trivial and even dumb — that I can’t believe I ever missed them. My past self must have been a real moron … What was he thinking?

Yesterday I finished writing an essay about my feelings of outsiderness – how I’ve always felt like an other, an outsider looking in, separate from any larger community.

I’ve only recently connected this feeling to experiences I had in the third and fourth grade. The short version: When I seven, my parents moved cross-country and I started at a new school. Then a year later, I was forced to transfer again to enter a new program. The new class was quite insular — the kids had been together for years at that point and weren’t very open to newcomers. I spent several formative years of my life feeling like an outsider.

I’m not going to post that essay. It’s only been a day since I finished it, and I already can’t relate to much of it. The facts are still the same, but my attitude has changed.

I realized in the course of writing it that my personal identity has become wrapped up in the idea of outsiderness. It helped form my tastes in music. It made it hard for me to feel a sense of belonging in groups. It made me feel separate, a lone wolf off on his solitary journey.

I also realized this feeling has shaped my personal myth — the story I tell myself, even if only subconsciously, about the arc of my life, my path, and my destiny. My myth has been that of the outsider.

It can be a tragic myth. I don’t think anyone really wants to be an outsider. But that doesn’t mean it’s not easy to come up with a story where you are one and then make the facts of your life fit that story. It’s not fun, but it’s easy.

So what’s the face-slappingly obvious part? It’s that I became so wrapped up in this outsider identity — this myth — that I couldn’t see its contingency. I couldn’t see that it wasn’t handed down from the gods but was instead the result of arbitrary experiences I had as an eight-year-old.

Pretty dumb, right? That’s a good thing.

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October 19th, 2009 at 11:16 am

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Man vs. Food: How I Went from Microwaving Corndogs to Top Chef in a Weekend

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key_art_top_chefIt’s Saturday morning, and I have no idea what I’m going to cook. All I know is that by Sunday evening I need to complete four dishes — a full meal.

The dishes need to be fancy. It remains to be seen whether they’ll be edible.

I’m starting my cooking challenge. The rules: one man, one weekend, no prior planning. The goal: one fancy meal, cooked and ready to eat.

What’s so challenging about cooking? If you’re me, a lot. I’ve avoided it my whole life. When asked to illustrate a recipe in high school German class, I diagrammed Ramen noodle preparation. Through college, I chopped vegetables for others but never did the cooking myself. Right now, cooking means heating up pasta and pouring sauce out of a jar — and that’s if I’m feeling ambitious.

Every year for the last decade I’ve thought, “I really should learn to cook one of these days,” but I haven’t done anything. The years have passed by; I’ve procrastinated and come up with excuses. There’s always been something else to do.

Well, no more! A week ago I decided to undertake this cooking challenge. The goal: to eliminate my fear of cooking once and for all — and to do it in a single weekend.

So here I am on Saturday morning.

I need to decide what I’m going to cook and then I need to get all the ingredients. As planned, I have absolutely no idea what I’m going to do.

I head to the bookstore. There are a lot of fancy cookbooks — French Laundry, Chez Panisse, etc. — but the first thing I think is … Top Chef! If you’re not familiar, Top Chef is a popular TV reality show that pits chefs against each other. Fancy dishes are usually the result. I’ve watched a couple seasons, and I like it.

Unfortunately, the Top Chef cookbook doesn’t look very good. It’s high on trivia and low on recipes. The recipes seem vague. They use obscure ingredients I probably won’t be able to find.

That’s actually something I’m worried about — I don’t know what’s in stock at the grocery store, and that makes it a little difficult to plan what I’m going to make. I just need to hope that everything important is there. I’m not going to bet on finding quail eggs.

978-0-307-40695-8But I do like the Top Chef idea. (After all, it lets me use “Top Chef” in the title of this article, right?) So I pick up a copy of Tom Colicchio’s Think Like a Chef. If you’re not aware, Colicchio’s the stern, bald judge on Top Chef. He’s founded a couple famous restaurants in New York City.

Colicchio’s book looks good. The recipes seem doable, and he explains the techniques well. There’s even a lot on his cooking philosophy. Great! I buy it and head home.

I spend the next couple hours reading about half of the book. I learn about roasting, braising, blanching, and so on. I think about what to do. I finally decide on four recipes — three from this book and one from another of Colicchio’s books.

These are the dishes I plan to make:

  • Artichoke Hearts Braised in Olive Oil and White Wine, with aromatic vegetables
  • Roasted Tomato Risotto
  • Roasted Herbed Leg of Lamb with Apple Cider Sauce
  • Banana Upside-Down Cake

Sounds pretty good, right? I make a huge list of all the ingredients I’m going to need. There are about 40 of them! This could take a while…

I also list the equipment I need to buy. I live in a large apartment with a lot of useful stuff — pots and pans of every size, strainers, lemon juicers, etc. — but I still don’t have everything. Among other things, I need to get a cake pan, a meat thermometer — I’ve never used one before — and twine for tying meat.

I buy all the produce first. I’m able to find almost everything at Golden Produce, a local shop, and Safeway. Fresh tarragon is out, so I have to settle for dried.

Then I get the rest of the ingredients, mostly from Safeway. Luckily Safeway stocks legs of lamb, which are about five pounds each. Nowhere else I looked does.

I have to take about three separate trips to the store to get everything, and I’m pretty exhausted when I finish. So many new concepts and recipe details are floating around in my head. I’ve spent about eight hours today on this challenge: first looking for cookbooks, then reading them, then deciding what to make, and finally getting all the ingredients.

Time to go to sleep and prepare for day two.

I sleep fitfully. I’m nervous about how this is all going to turn out. There are a lot of things I’m going to need to do tomorrow that I’ve never done before. Will they all work out?

Sunday comes. After taking a shower and eating, I procrastinate for about an hour. Then I get started.

First I come up with my plan of attack. I’ll roast the tomatoes and garlic first. They’re needed for the risotto, and roasting them takes a few hours. Then I’ll make the braised artichokes and upside-down cake, both of which can sit at room temperature. I’ll prepare the lamb and start it roasting. Finally, I’ll make the risotto and the apple cider sauce.

I’ll spare you the details of everything I do. I work methodically and try not to have too much going on at once. It’s easy to let things overcook if you’re not watching them. I learn techniques as I go — clarifying butter is hard without the right tools! – and improvise where necessary.

The most challenging part comes when it’s time to cut the hearts out of the raw artichokes. Doing so isn’t easy, even with directions. The artichokes fight back every step of the way. It’s not clear where the hearts begin and end. It takes me several artichokes before I feel like I know what I’m doing.

Everything else goes surprisingly smoothly. I credit that mostly to my attentiveness: I watch everything cook with eagle eyes, making sure not to let it go too long. Overcooking would have been particularly disastrous for the risotto, where I have to add more stock every few minutes.

After about eight hours of cooking, I’m done! I’m tired, but it’s great to see all the finished food — and, of course, to eat it. I share it with my brother Chris, his girlfriend Terra, and my apartment-mates Arvel, Sarah, Steve, and Brett.

Everything is good. The artichokes are tender, the risotto is creamy, the lamb wasn’t overcooked, and the upside-downcake is, in my brother’s words, “perfectly executed.” (I think he may have been channeling Tom Colicchio!)

So, success!

In a mere sixteen hours spread over two days, I have all but eliminated my fear of cooking. Sure, there’s a lot more to cooking than following recipes — and most chefs don’t even like recipes — but for the casual cook they work well.

What have I learned? First, cooking isn’t such a big deal. No huge surprise there, I guess.

But more importantly: Sometimes it’s best not just to face fears, but to kick their ass. After a decade of procrastination, I’m glad I got down to business and did this in one weekend. I could have taken a more measured approach — researching, planning, trying one thing at a time — but I’m glad I didn’t. The measured approach is boring, slow, and probably less likely to succeed, anyway.

Screw that. I want my roasted, herbed leg of lamb with apple cider sauce now!

Pictured below: My four dishes

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October 12th, 2009 at 12:28 pm

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Awesome Stuff You Should Check Out

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I thought I’d take a break from the usual essays I post here to cover a few things I’ve been loving recently.

The rules: I’m listing only stuff that’s current and that you may not have heard of before. You don’t need to know that I like to watch Teletubbies or eat at Chili’s (and boy, do I!). The point is to give helpful recommendations.

I hope you find something here interesting.

Blogs

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The Art of Nonconformity is run by world-traveller Chris Guillebeau. The site focuses on independent living, travel, and entrepreneurship. On it, Chris chronicles his quest to visit every country in the world — of which there are about 200, depending on how you count. He’s visited more than half of them.

I love Chris’s writing style. His travel keeps what he says grounded in real-world experience and provides plenty of interesting stories. He’s also an expert networker and social media user — I’m amazed at how quickly he’s risen to internet fame.

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Derek Sivers is a musician and the founder of CDBaby, an online store for independent musicians. He blogs mostly on entrepreneurship and marketing, with a focus on music.

Derek is one of the guys (along with Seth Godin — see below) who have turned me on to marketing. (It’s not as bad as you might think.) He writes short and engaging posts, and he knows a lot about the music industry. He’s one of those guys who seems to communicate, either in-person or over the net, with hundreds of people per day. I’m impressed.

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Seth Godin is already pretty well-known. He keeps a blog, writes books on business and marketing, and speaks at conferences like TED. He’s an engaging writer and speaker.

Seth’s blog is interesting, but I’m actually a bigger fan of his books. They’re short and expensive, but they’re full of insights on leadership, community building, and earning people’s attention (rather than buying or demanding it). Check out Purple Cow and Tribes. Seth’s books get bashed on Amazon for various reasons, but I’ve found them very helpful.

Books

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Talent Is Overrated, written by Geoff Colvin, argues that virtuoso performance (in pretty much anything) is the result of thousands of hours of focused practice. Talent — meaning any genetic disposition to do well without putting in the work — is much less important.

I loved this book. Colvin does not merely speculate or pontificate: he provides plenty of evidence to support his view. Talent tends to be imputed after-the-fact, when someone has already shown themselves capable of great work. Colvin shows that early talent (as judged by instructors) is a bad predictor of later success.

The best predictors are, by far, practice hours and what he terms practice “deliberateness.” Deliberate practice involves identifying and isolating weaknesses and working to overcome them. It requires intense focus and determination, and it’s not usually very fun. Colvin describes in detail how a number of sports stars, writers, and performers have used it.

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Brain Rules, written by molecular biologist John Medina, is a breezy summary of the practical findings from the last few decades of brain research. It’s organized into sections on exercise, attention, memory, sleep, and so on. The book’s section on exercise is illuminating: Besides the obvious physical benefits, exercise — well, mostly aerobic exercise — has a big positive impact on cognitive performance and mood. It also increases neuroplasticity — the brain’s ability to learn new things.

Medina also discusses the brain’s need for breaks in attention. He relates that to his teaching (and, in particular, lecturing) experience. He argues in support of taking a short afternoon nap and against multi-tasking. There’s a lot in this book, and I found almost all of it extremely interesting.

Music

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Ensiferum are an awesome Finnish viking metal band. (Well, now that I look at their Wikipedia page, I see they describe themselves as “heroic folk metal” — go figure.) The band is cheesy and over-the-top, but not in an annoying way.

Every Ensiferum album opens with an epic folky passage that would fit perfectly in movies like Braveheart and Lord of the Rings. The music that follows is usually heavy and fast, highly melodic, and upbeat. Vocals vary from harsh and raspy to clean and deep.

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Primordial are one of the most emotionally compelling bands I’ve come across in the past year. They’re a metal band from Ireland, but their recent output has been straying into hard rock territory. I saw them live earlier this year and was blown away by their vocalist. The guy’s been touring with this band for almost 20 years, and he sounds like he’s singing the last show of his life every time.

I’m having trouble describing Primordial’s music. It’s heavy, epic, and emotionally intense. Check out the song “Empire Falls” on their MySpace page.

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Star of Ash is the work of Norwegian musician Heidi Tveitan. I discovered her only because she’s the wife of Vegard Tveitan (aka. Ihsahn), the brilliant force behind symphonic black metal band Emperor.

Heidi Tveitan’s music is best described as cinematic. It’s atmospheric, moody, and often haunting. Her most recent album, The Thread, should be listened to as a single unit. Its songs tell a story and flow into one another. Though mostly instrumental, the album is punctuated by beautiful vocal performances from Tveitan and others.

There you have it. Have any recommendations of your own?

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October 6th, 2009 at 11:48 am

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Blogging Is Turning Me into an Attention Whore

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Paris_Hilton_Blogging can be a frustrating experience.

As a blogger, you want readers. What’s the point, otherwise? A blog without readers might as well be a private journal — no reason to pay the web hosting fee.

Of course, my blog does have some readers. I’m getting about 500 visitors per month right now. (Yes, I know — you’re impressed.) If I put up Google ads, I might have a few additional cents in my pocket by year end.

My readership is composed almost entirely of my friends. (Hey, guys! I like you. We should hang out more. But you’re an awfully quiet bunch.) I talk to people and hear they’ve read my stuff, but I don’t get much direct feedback.

I can’t say I’m that surprised. Most people browse the internet as consumers: They read headlines, skim articles, and click furiously from one site to another. They treat the web like a library and websites like books — well, books they toss aside after a minute or two.

And I’m no different. I’ve also been like this for most of my tenure on the web: Read, read, click, click, check e-mail, read, click.

I actually began as a contributor, though. In high school, I was part of a few game-related communities. I helped run a modestly popular website — which actually still exists, go figure — wrote some tutorials, participated in forums, and so on.

But once I started college, I reverted to consumption mode. I had less free time and felt less of a connection to my communities. I stopped contributing to them.

Now, nine years later, I’m transitioning back to the contributor role. It’s a strange feeling — like walking into a library and realizing you can have conversations with the books. Weird. But that’s the beauty of the internet: It’s great for information dissemination, but it’s best for interaction and community building. And I’m not just talking about e-mail and Facebook.

But now to my main point. As a blogger, I’m starting to notice something:

It takes a lot to grab people’s attention.

There’s so much to sift through on the web, and most of it is pretty pedestrian. Internet attention spans are short. People want a quick fix, something that will entertain or help them in just a few minutes.

As a blogger, I’m competing for your attention. I’m not used to that. I’ve always tried to avoid being the center of attention. It’s just not something I’ve liked.

But I can feel a change welling in me. When you write stuff and put it on the internet, you want people to read it. And if you’re not getting much attention, you start to crave it. It becomes an obsession.

That’s why so many bloggers are fixated on their “stats” — visitor numbers provided by services like Google Analytics. Their hearts flutter with every increase in traffic and shudder with every decrease. They shriek with glee when their posts reach the front page of sites like Digg.

I’m becoming an attention whore just like the rest of them. Or maybe I’m just an attention whore wannabe or an attention whore in training. There are worse things you could be, right? 

Okay, maybe not.

But that’s the way it is. I’m not so unhappy: It’s fun to enter this new role — competing for people’s attention — and see what I can make of it. I’ve done so little competing for attention so far in my life that everything is new and exciting.

And there are other benefits to blogging.

For one, it’s making me much less self-conscious. If you’re a private person — which I was much more so a year ago — you tend to think people will react strongly to what you say. You’re worried about making a bad impression. You think that if you don’t watch yourself you’ll screw up and put up something embarrassing for all to see. Everyone who searches for your name will think less of you.

I’ve realized these thoughts are delusions. Sure, you’ll always find the odd story of someone who gets screwed over — the corporate boss who sees drunk images of some kid on Facebook and decides not to hire him — but these are the exception. In general, people don’t care as much as you think they will. Your private life is a bigger deal to you than it is to them. It takes a lot more to grab their attention than you might think.

For me, this knowledge is freeing. It means I don’t need to heavily edit or censor myself. I don’t have to stress out about the far-reaching implications of everything I say. If I say something I think is idiotic ten years from now, fine. I’ll just have to deal with it. The only alternative is to say nothing at all or to water myself down so much that no one cares what I have to say, anyway.

There’s a tendency for bloggers to become provocative just for the sake of being provocative: to oversell in their headlines, reveal so much about their personal lives you wish they’d held back a little, or just say “fuck” a lot. I’m trying to avoid that. But you have it admit it’s pretty fucking tempting!

I suspect that it’ll be mostly other bloggers who can relate to this post. (My friend Kim, in fact, has written a similar post recently.) As with anything, it’s hard to understand what it’s like to be a blogger if you aren’t one.

And that’s fine. Bloggers are more likely to leave comments, anyway ;)

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September 28th, 2009 at 10:58 am

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How to Write Rock Music Like a Rockstar

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rockstar_energy_drinks_250ml_and_473mlAre you sick of hearing “rockstar” applied to everything? I am. Everyone is a rockstar: Internet companies search for “rockstar” Python programmers. Corporate websites advise you on how to be a “rockstar” recruiter. You can even drink high fructose corn syrup and caffeine and be a rockstar.

There’s a reason guys like Jimmy Page and Kurt Cobain aren’t called “top corporate recruiter” musicians. Yes, that would be unwieldy … but it would also be lame. Let’s call a horse a horse.

In that vein, I’d like to look at how rock musicians write rock music. I run a not-so-oft-updated site called The Songwriting Process where I collect quotes from musicians on their creative process. In the process of collecting them, I’ve noticed a few patterns.

Of course, songwriting can’t be boiled down to a definable process. You’ll never find a recipe that makes it easy or straightforward. Creativity doesn’t work that way. Still, there are some techniques that help songs flow more freely. And if you do some analogizing, the patterns I’ve found should be useful for any creative process.

This is how to write rock music like a rockstar:

1. Start with one small, but good, idea.

This is an extremely common technique. The idea is to build songs from the ground up: Rather than worrying about song structure or interplay between instruments, just come up with one good part – a melody, guitar riff, drum loop, lyric, whatever. Once you have a part that moves you, grow it into a full song.

John Lennon describes how he wrote the Beatles’s song “Because”:

I was lying on the sofa in our house, listening to Yoko play Beethoven’s “Moonlight Sonata,” on the piano. Suddenly I said, “can you play those chords backwards.” She did, and I wrote “Because” around them.

Metallica used this technique to write their hit “Enter Sandman.” Guitarist Kirk Hammett came up with the song’s main riff, which was then modified slightly by drummer Lars Ulrich. The rest of the song evolved from that single riff. Ulrich calls “Enter Sandman” a “one-riff song.”

2. Use rules or limitations.

It’s easy to feel overwhelmed as a songwriter. After all, a song can go in any direction and become almost anything – the freedom’s almost too much to handle. For this reason, some songwriters like to constrain themselves.

Nine Inch Nails mainman Trent Reznor says:

If I come up with rules or limitations it focuses me in a direction. … those rules and limitations can change if you realize it’s a dumb idea. You start to mutate it and see what fits best.

For the album With Teeth, Reznor forced himself to write two songs every 10 days. He also decided before starting that he wanted to album to sound “frail” and “unsure of itself.” This guideline had a big impact on his recording and production process.

Bob Dylan says that if he gets stuck while writing a song, he forces himself to change keys on guitar. Because of the nature of the instrument, playing the song in a new key often leads to new ideas: “Anything you do in A, it’s going to be a different song in G. … There’s too many wide passing notes in G not to influence your writing unless you’re playing barre chords.”

3. Keep it simple.

Many songwriters write with just one instrument–often acoustic guitar or piano–and their voice. A whole band or complex equipment would just confuse things. Other instruments and parts can come later once the core of the song has been formed.

Heidi Tveitan, head of atmospheric rock outfit Star of Ash, describes the writing process for her most recent album:

All songs were written on piano, and when I felt that it worked there, I took it further in the studio. It was important to me having the compositions work in their basic forms before I started layering, as it is so easy to get lost in the arrangements during the writing process. This way I was also more confident and had a clear vision on the songs’ expression before I brought in additional musicians.

Mike Mills of R.E.M. and Billy Joe Armstrong of Green Day both report writing hard-rocking numbers by themselves on an acoustic guitar. While Mills says the songs can change a lot when he brings them to the band, Armstrong says he always has the dynamics of the full band in mind:

I always have it in the back of my head about the dynamics of electric guitar and drums and bass. … But I think that’s the beauty of this. That not only can I play these songs with a band at full volume, but also that I can play them on a cheap, acoustic guitar. And it can have the same kind of impact. 

4. Record ideas and come back to them later.

So songwriters often start with a single idea — see (1). But what if they have an idea but don’t know how to use it? Or what if they have too many ideas and can’t use them all right now?

David Gilmour of Pink Floyd solves this problem by recording his ideas to a portable device. Since he started doing this, his output has grown “massively.” He doesn’t forget his ideas any more. Gilmour’s most recent (solo) album was composed from 150 ideas that he recorded over 12 years.

Niklas Sundin of melodic death metal outfit Dark Tranquillity says his band works similarly:

We always have a backlog of tons and tons of different riffs. You write something that everyone agrees is good, but it might not be possible to finish it at that time. Then a few years later it might be perfect for something that’s around then.

Interestingly, avant-garde singer-songwriter Björk takes a completely different approach. She tries not to record her melodic ideas when they first come. Rather, she prefers to “let [her] subconscious do the editing,” using only ideas that she can remember later.

5. Intermingle the writing and recording processes.

Some songwriters don’t like to keep things simple. This is partly a stylistic issue: Some musical ideas are, at their core, too complicated to be composed by one person on one instrument. Instead, a multi-track recording device is necessary: Ideas are recorded, layered, and rearranged as inspiration calls. 

Mikael Åkerfeldt of progressive metal band Opeth actually demos the band’s songs by himself in his house. He uses a simple Pro Tools setup on his computer, recording guitar and vocal parts and programming drums electronically. He listens to recorded rough drafts of his albums before the “real” recording process begins.

Ihsahn, leader of symphonic black metal band Emperor, says that while composing the band’s newer albums in the studio,

I could record a riff when I came up with it, or I could write a riff to accompany a new synth passage, or vice versa. The arrangements became more complete because of this; I had much more freedom. I could delve into various elements for a mid-section of a song, and then not have to worry about the beginning or ending of the songs until later on. … I can document my ideas as I get them, record riffs immediately after they are developed. Later on, I can pick out elements and work more on them or change them afterwards

Previously he had been forced to write “band music” in rehearsal and then layer the symphonic elements later.

6. Jam with the band.

Most people think bands come up with music by jamming together in the same room. And some bands do, of course. But I was surprised to many (and perhaps even the majority) don’t. Instead, a single individual often writes the core of the band’s songs, with other members layering their parts later.

Still, many artists like to compose collaboratively. Madonna describes how she worked with Prince to come up with “Love Song”:

He played drums and I played the synthesizer, and we came up with the original melody line; I just, off the top of my head, started singing lyrics into the microphone. And then he overdubbed some guitar stuff and made a loop of it and sent it to me, and then I just started adding sections to it and singing parts of it. And then I sent it back to him, and he’d sing a part of it and add another instrument and send it back to me … it was like this sentence that turned into a paragraph that turned into a little miniseries.

John Lennon reports that he and Paul McCartney often wrote together, eyeball to eyeball, in the Beatles’s early days. He says:

In “I Want To Hold Your Hand,” I remember when we got the chord that made the song. We were in Jane Asher’s house, downstairs in the cellar playing on the piano at the same time. And we had, “Oh you-u-u / got that something…” And Paul hits this chord, and I turn to him and say, “That’s it!” I said, “Do that again!” In those days, we really used to absolutely write like that — both playing into each other’s noses.

Mike Mills says R.E.M. takes a half-way approach: members will come up with ideas themselves at home, but then they’ll jam together to form songs:

Everybody sits at home and diddles around. Sometimes you’ll come up with little ideas and sometimes you’ll come up with a huge part of a song. And then you’ll take that into everyone else and piece it together until you get a song. Other times, things just come out of, literally, just the four of us sitting around and making noise. All of a sudden it will reemerge into a song.

These are the patterns I’ve noticed so far. Have you seen others? Do you use techniques like these in other pursuits?

By the way, for many, many more songwriting tips, check out these two articles at Songwriting Zen.

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September 21st, 2009 at 12:27 pm

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Ambition: Do You Have It?

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ambition1Some people just aren’t ambitious.

Take Michael Skrzypek. The San Francisco resident was covered in the Chronicle last year. For five years, Skrzypek worked 10 weeks per year, earning enough money to finance the remaining 42.

How’d he swing that? Basically, he got lucky. He fell into the arrangement–working with legal trial presentation software–mostly due to happenstance.

So what did Skrzypek do during his 42 free weeks? Not a whole lot. He says:

It’s embarrassing to admit, but I don’t have an answer for what I did on an average day. Most days, I got up and wondered what I would do. … A lot of days I wouldn’t get out of bed. I’d just read. I liked to joke that I was the only person in the United States who read the New Yorker every week, cover to cover.

Skrzypek’s friends observed his inaction and made suggestions. One suggested he take up bluegrass guitar. Another suggested he read the complete works of Dostoevsky. Others wanted him to write short stories or volunteer at a homeless shelter.

Skrzypek wasn’t interested. He held firm: He wasn’t going to do anything; he didn’t need to be productive to be worthwhile. His desire for achievement was nil.

Skrzypek has since taken a full-time job, but only because doing nothing was getting boring. He says, “I don’t have that kind of ambition that makes people anxious or competitive.” He’s just not an ambitious person.

And there’s nothing wrong with that. Though Skrzypek was torn apart by SFGate commenters, I have nothing against him. Not everyone needs to work hard or focus on achievement. I’m happy he’s living as he sees fit.

But what about you? Are you ambitious? Most people wouldn’t say they are. Ambition’s a dirty word. It brings to mind greed, competition, and workaholism. It’s seen as something you focus on if you’ve got your priorities wrong. It also means hard work: You can’t claim to be ambitious if you’re resting on your laurels. If you say you’re ambitious but you’re not doing much, you’re basically admitting you’re lazy. 

That’s why far more people are ambitious than will admit it to themselves. They think ambition’s bad. They don’t want to see themselves as lazy.

How do I know this is true? Because of envy.

Envy’s a powerful emotion. We feel it when we want something someone else has: respect, experience, accomplishment, whatever. It’s a very strong–and true–form of desire.

Envy is often hard to detect because it masquerades as anger, hatred, and resentment. Rather than acknowledging envy directly, we focus negative energy on its cause. We come up with reasons–rationalizations–to make ourselves feel better. We become righteously indignant.

I’ve seen this happen in my own life. When I was in college and a struggling beginner guitar player, I tended to resent other musicians on campus. I thought their music was lousy, I thought they were pretentious — I just didn’t like them.

I now realize those feelings were caused mostly by envy. I don’t look back now and think, “Wow, those guys were brilliant!” but I do see that my feelings were more a reflection of who I was than who they were. Their music was no threat to me. My resentment was unwarranted. It was caused by my frustration with where I was as a musician.

This is a common pattern. It’s why anger and resentment–and therefore envy–point to ambition. It’s why if you feel anger and resentment you could be ambitious without knowing it. (Incidentally, this is the focus of a recent post of Jennifer McGuiggan’s at The Word Cellar, “Turn Envy into Inspiration.” Check it out — it’s good.)

So what about ambition? Isn’t it bad? I don’t think so: Ambition’s only a motivating force. It’s one that drives us to want to do remarkable things, to stand out in some way. Many amazing things have been done in the name of ambition. And of course, some awful things–and some merely pathetic or pointless ones–have also been done in its name. Ambition by itself is neither good nor bad. 

I know I’m ambitious. I want to be interesting and remarkable. I know I’m much better off acknowledging that than hiding in a cloud of resentment.

That’s why I’ve chosen to focus my energy on conscientious ambition. Ambition doesn’t have to be about accumulating vast quantities of money or attaining some narcissistic ideal. Conscientious ambition is focusing your ambitious tendencies on making the world a better place. It’s doing things like working to right wrongs, improve people’s quality of life, and produce things of beauty.

Ambition can be a great thing. Do you have it?

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September 11th, 2009 at 2:49 pm

Posted in Essays